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It was 1978, a difficult year for me. I went to the gynecologist for a routine examination, there were no abnormalities - until he told me:

"You have vitiligo on your vagina, that is the white spot disease, there is nothing that can be done about it. It is spreading, incurable. My father also has vitiligo, he looks like a spotted cow."

I don't remember how I left the doctor‘s office, I just remember that I felt very abandoned.

My partner had recently left me and my whole world fell apart. My friends - both doctors I went to - were shocked by the doctor's statement and they looked for vitiligo in their files, comforting me because: You don't say something like that, it is still largely unexplored.

Interestingly, I kept meeting people with the white spots afterward. They were on holiday at the Dead Sea, but I went to my homeopath, who gave me high potency remedies. There were a few spots on my wrists and feet, but it didn't spread.
But the spots didn't go away either. And - I forgot about the vitiligo for a while.

Until one weekend many years later, when I was at Helmut Pilhar's, I found out what was behind it when we were discussing skin. I spoke to him during the break, he was very interested - and he asked me what had happened before, why did my system want the skin to be more sensitive in this area?

I knew immediately. My ex-partner had said to me shortly before he left me: "You don't have an orgasm!" It was like an epiphany. Everything fell into place.

I had a long phone call with Dr. Hamer. I had sent him a CT scan of my brain and he had explained to me, among other things, that I had a constellation in my territory areas. Two sexual conflicts in my childhood.

When asked when I had my period for the first time, I said: At 13 or 14 - he: very late! The second territory conflict must have happened shortly before that. Among other things, he told me that I couldn't have a vaginal orgasm, only a clitoral one. So that was it.

My ex-partner had cheated on me (he was a pilot in the same airline as me, the stewardesses were probably interested in him) – and that's where he came up with the comparison.
And my system probably tried to save what could be saved based on his statement by conjuring up vitiligo in that spot. It's totally brilliant – even if it didn't help anymore.
What's so bad about that? I must have been happy with it, because the vitiligo didn't spread any further, which I'm extremely grateful for.

Note from Ingmar Marquardt:
Thank you for this open report of your experience! Vitiligo is the SBS of the lowest layer of the ectodermal epidermis, the so-called basement membrane. This is where the melanocytes are formed, which are responsible for the color of the skin.

In the conflict-active phase, the basement membrane is broken down, so that fewer or no melanocytes are formed and the skin turns white in those areas.

The epidermis is actually part of the outer skin scheme, so that it becomes numb in the active phase and you therefore feel less. However, it is repeatedly observed that there is also the opposite reaction, i.e. hypersensitivity in the conflict-active phase (presumably when it comes to fear of touch/contact).

The conflict content is a so-called "unjust separation conflict", which was felt here because of the statement and separation of her ex-partner in parts of the body with a sexual context.